I wish it could have been you here with me tonight. It's terrible but I wanted you there with me. It's just such a beautiful place and there's something so intimate about witnessing beauty and things like this with someone else. I love experiencing certain things with people, like it creates a memory and a certain bond. I wanted that for us. Plus, this is your element. I went there because YOU designed a lab for us for extra credit. So it's not difficult for me to start thinking of you when I was there. I wanted you to geek out with me and explain all the displays and everything to me. I wanted you to be happy in your element and teach me things. I wanted you to teach other people things so they can look at you and be like, "Damn, she know this really well," and then I can be proud to be the one to be with you. I wish it could have been you standing next to me as we looked out over the ledge at all the downtown Los Angeles city lights with a warm breeze blowing. Or you sitting next to me on the ledge watching the LA lights or lying next to me in the planetarium.

It never will be, though.