be my goddamn motherfucking friend!

everything changed. i drunkenly told you i'm in love with you. the strange thing is, i don't think i am. i think i just wanted your attention. i wanted to be friends, i wanted to be close, and i sensed you pushing me away so that seemed like the only way to get your attention and develop a relationship that you don't have with any other student. i didn't think it would go anywhere - i don't want it to go anywhere - but i still regret telling you. i regret not having a friendship anymore, like feeling i have to be 100% professional with you and i hate that. i want to gossip and ask about your personal life and god i want to know what the fuck happened with you recently. i miss your friendship, even though we weren't really friends.